no one is listening.
do you hear me, you’re beautiful.
are you listening? or are you just hearing.my words barely cast shadows. i use to know all the right things to say, now i speak in a clumbsy way. i just want to help, i just want to love, i just want. or maybe i want to much, am i asking for too much? i say what i think, my words aren’t seaping in.
there’s a part of me breaking, it’s snapping in half. i’m striving to hold it together. someone, something, help me. my arms are growing incredibly weak.
i tried, i tried, i tried. hoping to glue this part back together. but ofcourse, see, nothing ever works out. no matter what i do and how hard i’m trying, it won’t be good enough. it can’t be, not with someone like me.i know what i want. but believe me when i say it is the most difficult thing i could ever try and have. i ask myself why i can’t just be someones other, and than i’m imprudently reminded of who i am. looking in the mirror makes my stomach twirl, my head hurt, and my eyes bleed. the image of myself is so broken and torn and the glue of the broken parts is pealing off very quickly.
i’m
scaredterrified because there’s the thought of you fulfilling someone else’s dreams. that seems utterly pathetic, we haven’t been talking that long, i know. well, it’s just the things running through my head. i know that i do feel something, and i’m too used to it being ripped from me. i have high hopes of that not happening this time. false hope can’t take over this time, please. i don’t want to have to feel with my head, i want to feel with my heart. give me something, some sense of security, that my heart can lead what i feel. security, i just want something. some foundation as to what i’m really getting myself into.i’ve got to go run now.
i hope you’re smiling, the thoughts of you are racing through my head.
See yah.“i don’t want to have to feel with my head, i want to feel with my heart”
couldn’t have said it better myself.
Thanks. ps, i like your style.
thank you, what you write i feel like i’ve written. What’s your zodiac sign?
OMG I LOVE THIS
“My Boo
You are my heart, my soul,
The day grows cold
You are not here, I’m all alone.
The wind blows chills through my bones,
The days are long, the nights are old,
When will you come for me to hold?
I need you here this is getting old.
I’m so alone always alone.
The tears all fall down all their own.
I am depressed there’s no success.
I miss you so but you will never know.
You can’t see me in the top row.
It’s crowded in here its hard to breath,
There’s people alone just like me.
When will you see o’ little me?
Standing here waiting
For you to be with me
Can’t you see your perfect for me?
I will plea or get on my knees,
I love you yes it’d real.
But you don’t feel what I feel..
But you don’t feel what I feel.
You don’t love me you never will.
I’ll just go do another pill,
My life’s a waste can’t you tell?
The things I do will lead me to hell,
I praise my Lord, I wish he could ease the pain
But my heart will never heal.
I need you now more than ever,
As the weight on my shoulders
Starts to grow heavier.
You don’t even know me
And I don’t know you
Maybe life is too short to waste on you
But I will understand why the feelings I get
Brings butterflies, its you I want.
It’s time to wait even if it’s a year after its to late.
Love is weird, I still fear
That I will die for the end is near.
My eyes fill up with large tears they fall heavy
Into the levy my knees are week,
My chest feels heavy.
I need to feel you on my belly,
The smell of your hair,
The touch of your skin feels
Just like the ocean wind,
You’re my angel come back home
Be will me the night is young I need this so
You don’t know all the pain inside my soul,
I’m getting week so take a peek
I’m on my knees begin you please come to my life
Why can’t this be you and me
I’d make you happy by just being me
I’ll never change someday you’ll see you
Take the breath right out of me
Open your eyes it’s only me
My heart is yours if you’d let it be
I’m in front of you come to me I beg and plea
You’ll rescue me my heart is shattered
It’s on this platter I’m starting
To feel nothing like any of this matters
I do these pills it helps me sleep maybe I’ll
Die without peep. Do not weep
I’m still hear I’ll take this pain
And switch some gears
I shed one tear I turn to my rear I shake it off
There’s no more fear, I will see you and you’ll
Know I’m not some punk you lil’ sis knows
Call me young call me bold I want you in my life
To forever hold Think I’m crazy
I think I am too but I’m just crazy over you
I’m just a guy but I wont do you wrong
I’m just a moron maybe your sis is wrong
She saw what I felt and
she saw it in you
I’ll do anything to be with you
I need you I want you
I’ve never felt this before I know your
Not a whore
Your pure heart and soul I’ll pay the toll,
I know this is lame, but it’s not a game
I hope our feelings are the same
My heart is yours please just take it
It may not be there in time for you now
Your in my dreams of all different themes
I lay there thinking of what it may mean.
Sometimes I feel like I just need to scream
I want to know you please let me show you
Thant I am who she says I am
Trust her don’t bust her she knows me well
Trust your instincts follow your heart maybe
Someday you’ll think she’s smart
Believe her judgment for it is true
I hope very soon I can call you my boo!”
| — | Josh Brown (via emmaenvy) |
“My Boo
You are my heart, my soul,
The day grows cold
You are not here, I’m all alone.
The wind blows chills through my bones,
The days are long, the nights are old,
When will you come for me to hold?
I need you here this is getting old.
I’m so alone always alone.
The tears all fall down all their own.
I am depressed there’s no success.
I miss you so but you will never know.
You can’t see me in the top row.
It’s crowded in here its hard to breath,
There’s people alone just like me.
When will you see o’ little me?
Standing here waiting
For you to be with me
Can’t you see your perfect for me?
I will plea or get on my knees,
I love you yes it’d real.
But you don’t feel what I feel..
But you don’t feel what I feel.
You don’t love me you never will.
I’ll just go do another pill,
My life’s a waste can’t you tell?
The things I do will lead me to hell,
I praise my Lord, I wish he could ease the pain
But my heart will never heal.
I need you now more than ever,
As the weight on my shoulders
Starts to grow heavier.
You don’t even know me
And I don’t know you
Maybe life is too short to waste on you
But I will understand why the feelings I get
Brings butterflies, its you I want.
It’s time to wait even if it’s a year after its to late.
Love is weird, I still fear
That I will die for the end is near.
My eyes fill up with large tears they fall heavy
Into the levy my knees are week,
My chest feels heavy.
I need to feel you on my belly,
The smell of your hair,
The touch of your skin feels
Just like the ocean wind,
You’re my angel come back home
Be will me the night is young I need this so
You don’t know all the pain inside my soul,
I’m getting week so take a peek
I’m on my knees begin you please come to my life
Why can’t this be you and me
I’d make you happy by just being me
I’ll never change someday you’ll see you
Take the breath right out of me
Open your eyes it’s only me
My heart is yours if you’d let it be
I’m in front of you come to me I beg and plea
You’ll rescue me my heart is shattered
It’s on this platter I’m starting
To feel nothing like any of this matters
I do these pills it helps me sleep maybe I’ll
Die without peep. Do not weep
I’m still hear I’ll take this pain
And switch some gears
I shed one tear I turn to my rear I shake it off
There’s no more fear, I will see you and you’ll
Know I’m not some punk you lil’ sis knows
Call me young call me bold I want you in my life
To forever hold Think I’m crazy
I think I am too but I’m just crazy over you
I’m just a guy but I wont do you wrong
I’m just a moron maybe your sis is wrong
She saw what I felt and
she saw it in you
I’ll do anything to be with you
I need you I want you
I’ve never felt this before I know your
Not a whore
Your pure heart and soul I’ll pay the toll,
I know this is lame, but it’s not a game
I hope our feelings are the same
My heart is yours please just take it
It may not be there in time for you now
Your in my dreams of all different themes
I lay there thinking of what it may mean.
Sometimes I feel like I just need to scream
I want to know you please let me show you
Thant I am who she says I am
Trust her don’t bust her she knows me well
Trust your instincts follow your heart maybe
Someday you’ll think she’s smart
Believe her judgment for it is true
I hope very soon I can call you my boo!”
| — | Josh Brown (via emmaenvy) |





